tanam anggur...

macam tak percaya but i guess, i really,finally graduate from uni...it's a great feeling after all the efforts,trust and hardwork have been poured to make this day really happened.sangat-sangat happi sebab sudah bebas dari tanggungan sebagai seorang pelajar but now, i have to grow up because i'm going to start working...how does that feel?responsibility makes me nervous...but it feel sad whilst i'm packing my stuff...so much have had happened; ups and downs, good and bad...i feel empty suddenly because whenever the door was closed, i don't belong here anymore..i'm unknown to the next things that i'll be doing...so, dalam sedih and terharu,i'm moving on and trying hard to be optimistic. had my stuffs moved from the house, went to KLCC and submitted my report duty form to mr. harussany(**eventho it's 2 months late,sorry,i really wasn't aware about it!) and came back home to rearrange all the stuff...:D next plan, still in pre-determine phase but i'm thinking of taking maybe: photography lesson or flash or photoshop OR perhaps open an online business...not sure which one but i'll choose one after the 1st Jan 2010...AND, please pray for me!

pagi yang tenang...

hari-hari yang bakal dirindui..simply everything that i could hear from my opened windows; today, yesterday and many days before...nothing great though, but from here, i could listened to many things that use to make my heart feel at ease, whenever i'm loss...something really funny when i'm totally panic or just need to be inspired..neighbours that never failed to amaze me with their choices of songs...i just realised that basically we all kind of listen to the same music..and mornings really amuse me with the birds and chickens....their sounds make the day perfect... 

pernah ku simpan jauh rasa ini
berdua jalani cerita
kau ciptakan mimpiku
jujur ku hanya sesalkan diriku
kau tinggalkan mimpiku
dan itu hanya sesalkan diriku

ku harus lepaskanmu
melupakan senyummu
semua tentangmu, tentangku, hanya harap
jauh, ku jauh, mimpiku dng inginku

ku harus lepaskanmu
melupakan senyummu
semua tentangmu, tentangku, hanya harap
semua tentangmu, tentangku, hanya harap
jauh, ku jauh, mimpiku dng inginku

semua tentangmu, tentangku, hanya harap
jauh, ku jauh, mimpiku dng inginku

jauh mimpiku dengan inginku

jauh mimpiku - peterpan

kung fu panda?

since i'm logged in to this, i shall update a bit..not much to tell anyway...this evening,we got chased by a cute-looking-4 dimensional-doggie that are chasing for our burgers....very cute looking but the fact that i'm afraid of it made me run as fast as i could..**more like walking fast as i could; because they said if you started to run, it will chase you...so, no way out ey....tried as much as possible to act cool and all but i guessed we both did make a succesfull gag for the people around that were watching...anyway, we got home safe and sound with our beloved food...(hahahahaah, i was about to throw the burgers previously but thinking that's my precious i kept holding to it...)so up till now, just going back and forth trying hard to study....i realised that my paper is only 2 days to go, still long time (if calculated in hours or minutes or seconds), but i guess, since this would be my last paper before i graduate...i should put 2 more times effort than before....*sigh* so, off first..i gotta study moreeeee!oh yes, we all looking like pandas that have been overworked by the exams....sleepy yet sleepless and very active....hiah!

series of unfortunate events...

well, our midnight had turned to be much more like a very serious series of unfortunate gag...as we were eagerly watching Willy Wonka and enjoying our less healthy foods...it was raining from before and we were all in the mood for something filling and it only came after 60 minutes (more or less) of dreading the fast-food guy to come faster...we called 3 times just to ensure that they'd send somebody to send it to us....(*i bet they must be really annoyed + pressured), but hey, your customers were really dissatisfied here and hungry too....then, we it finally came and we got to settled down in front of very-much-in-love-BFF, television;where it suddenly went to grey-blank -mode and finished with a a quick flash and burning smell...and, there goes our movie and mood...ruined with the death of the very-much-darling-tvee...(*wonder if Mr Lai gonna give us a new tvee or again we have to find it ourself?) but the climax was when we just realized that the water was gone and we did not save any in case of nature's calling..and that's what really happened...with the eating spree of serious black pepper, milo, ice cream and various snacks, my stomach can hold it anymore....desperately, after a while of struggling to hold it back...we were giving up and started our journey to the nearest toilets which is in uni.....but the challenge just begin as they have exams tomorrow..wonder if they gonna take shower or where they will do just that before their papers? heheheehehe...gud luck, my dearest!

photo willy wonka by jorgepacker

selamat tahun baru!

walau jasad tidak berubah, moga-moga karat di dalam jiwa kita bisa tanggal saat ini.aku berharap dan bermohon agar selepas hari ini perkara yang baik-baik bakal aku tempuhi.begitu juga buat teman-teman dan keluarga.let's cleanse our heart,soul and mindset. kita kelmarin bukanlah kita hari ini..nothing else matters except to strive for more goodness not only to one's self but to the rest of the nation.maybe i will only contribute a little, but i believe i'd make a different. 

SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1431H!

hijrah membentuk perpaduan...juga penyatuan jiwa dan jasad untuk menjadi orang yang lebih tunduk dan senang dengan kepercayaan dan saudara-saudaranya. tiada yang lebih baik dari merasakan yang terbaik sambil terus berusaha agar kita tetap dijalan yang baik-baik...[dengan izin-Nya]

malam yang dingin..

buat orang malas...

aku disini tetap pening kepala..

(ikut versi pagi yang gelap korus)

pening?taklah sangat, cuma memikirkan a few escape plans from revisions before exam. makin dekat nak grad, makin bosan rasanya hidup. i guess, part of me will miss the childish-spoil brat-thoughtless persona of me when working life will be the next train to be on...still wondering if working later will be the same as when i was doing my internship?perhaps, it's just the same but the consequences of every actions later will be on my shoulder not anyone else anymore.so, more or less this is my resolution for 2010:

• to try my best to be inspired and to inspire others through my position.
• to give more than what i am about to receive.
  
• to learn to be more motivated and to motivate others.
  

wish me well. fighting!

photo where is the train by fas-ola

layan lagu jap...

photo album cover:time for change

2PM - again & again

TRANSLATIONS
again and again and again and again
again and again and again and again

why am i standing like this in front of your house again, am i a fool
getting tricked again and again, and suffering again and again
but why am i at this place again

i think i’ve gone crazy, have i no pride
i come back to you, like going around and around in a circle
saying ‘i can’t be like this (like this, like this)’,
i’m being like this again today, no

again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why, i don’t know why
again and again and again and again
i fall for your words again. i don’t know why, i don’t know why

why do i seem like such a fool
why did i become like this
i made a firm decision, again and again
why do i keep coming back to you

i think i’ve gone crazy, have i no pride
i come back to you, like going around and around in a circle
saying ‘i won’t ever see you again (see you, see you)’,
i’m being like this again

again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. i don’t know why, i don’t know why
again and again and again and again
i fall for your words again. i don’t know why, i don’t know why

what kind of medicine are you, that i can’t give it up
even without me knowing, i keep yearning for you, and eventually look for you again
though i know you’re a bad girl, i embrace you and love you again
undoubtedly, clearly, i want to come towards you
knowing all the pains of tomorrow, i can’t turn around, i can’t decide

darn it, why am i like this, why am i lying next to this girl
how many more times do i have to do this for me to come to my senses
someone, tie me down somewhere, quickly, please
she’s a bad girl, i know (i know), but here i go again. oh no

again and again and again and again
i keep going back to you. (i’m going back to you) i don’t know why, i don’t know why
again and again and again and again (i keep coming back)
i fall for your words again. (even i) i don’t know why, i don’t know why
oh, oh, yeah

nappeun namja

waktu tetap berjalan, malah ianya kian beransur pergi dengan begitu pantas...setiap permulaan, pasti ada hujung perjalanannya. penghujung yang aku tunggu tetapi tidak dengan penghabisan yang aku harapkan. sekali lagi, selepas ini; permulaan baru bakal bermula...tak banyak yang aku harapkan cuma beberapa perkara yang terlepas, buat aku lega kerana ia telah dilepaskan...tiada sebab untuk aku merasa berat meninggalkan ini..nothing to be missed.cuma kadang-kala, aku terfikir, mungkin lebih kepada mengingati tentang dia...lucu tapi aku sentiasa merasa dia disisi,always looking for me..wajahnya tak pernah berubah, tak pernah berlalu dengan reaksi...sekadar ekspresi kosong mengatakan aku disini, dan kamu juga disini...sekadar itu, tapi aku merasa dia dimana-mana, jelas dengan dirinya sedangkan aku masih lagi berfikir-fikir tentang aku.

p/s: nak ikut gi korea!

photo waiting for by skyhorizon

selamat pagi sunshine!!

buat matahari yang tetap memancar ke bumi kala ini.mungkin tinggal aku sendiri yang masih termangu-mangu, penat menahan mata dan perasaan untuk beradu..terasa pedih di mata dan otak angkara esaimen yang tak ada hujungnya...tapi due date tetap bertandang dan aku telah berjaya mengakhirinya...perhaps, the others will be more proactive and add more to the conclusion. aku dah malas sangat nak mencari konklusi kepada report yang terlalu wordy akibat dari super-ambitious-dreams-of ours...just finished with the snapshots of the interface, hopefully it's sufficient to buy Ms. Oii's heart to give us extra marks...:D but now, mahu atau tidak, otak dan mata kurniaan tuhan ini memberontak untuk berhenti...so sangat tired, saya mahu ber-adu kepadaNya..:D

boring days..

been under the strings of many workloads..does not really matter, ey?life is about working hard and trying even harder...but all this report thingy really make my head want to explode. :D

p/s: i wanna put the song seung-ri strong baby, but guess the lyric to explicit for the rythm..check it yourself..:D

again and again.....mulla..

'NUFF WITH YOUR IGNORANCE

i have enuff and i'm tired of being your "ball"..don't kick me around as you please...and don't runaway when your excuses are just lame ignorances...

tekanan dan cobaan yang mendatang buat rasa aku bertambah parah.pasti enak kalau dapat menjerit sekuat-kuatnya sambil cakap; "i have enuff..!" yes, i'd have enuff and aku malas nak berpihak kepada sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri. sudah penat aku melihat manusia bertelagah, lebih penat kerna keadaannya tak ubah seperti sikap anak-anak kecil di tadika...

addicted to pop-techno wave..

which really make me wonder about my decreasing taste in music...:D fyi, i hate techno or any type machine-based music..but lately, most songs that i listen to is in such genre...anyway, it does not hurt to try something new,ey?i dont understand the lyric anyway but the song are pretty even when it's fast beat...it's uplifting my emotions so i guess, i don't care...currently my ears are hooking up with this one:

Super Girl - Super Junior M

Oh~super, super girl
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~

look at me, look at me, dont’ keep thinking about him
don’t love, don’t love, he doesn’t love you
Your perfection surpass him
Don’t look at the hand phone any more
Don’t hesitate anymore
You understand You’re clear My super girl
You remember the times he gave you flowers, throw it away, quickly throw it away
and also his charming smile forget it, quickly forget it
his gentleness may make you dazed. wake up, faster wake up
You seemed so mysterious
let me keep it a secret

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

look at me, look at me, don’t keep following him
If he says he likes you, no matter how busy you are, he’ll wait for you
He must be lying
That is not his sincere words
Oh~don’t believe, leave
Oh~ come back to my side

You remember the times he gave you flowers, throw it away, quickly throw it away
and alos his charming smile forget it, quickly forget it
his gentleness may make you dazed. wake up, faster wake up
You seemed so mysterious
let me keep it a secret

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you

Happily, sorrowfully
I promise you, to always be with you,to always be with you
Prepared the world’s best love, most expensive love
Waiting for you to move into my heart
Don’t give up the power of happiness
The one and only world’s most beautiful

Oh my Super girl, you are my Baby girl
he can’t see your beauty, ordinary back charm
Oh my Super girl, I’m your super man
your eyes hypnotize me
I’ll do anything for you

You are my awesome super girl (Don’t wait anymore, anymore)
Come and fly to the future with me (Love doesn’t need to be rehearse, rehearse)
I’m your super (source of strength) (Don’t wait anymore, anymore)
Come and fly to the future with me (Love doesn’t need to be rehearse, rehearse)

Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)
Oh~oh~Oh~oh~(my love)

i'm the sky..

and he's the only one,my rain..:D [yes, this might sounds delusional..but i am head over heels over ♥♥♥Jung Ji Hoon ♥♥♥!] i am regretting myself for not being prepared mentally and financially for his only concert tour in Jakarta 2 days ago..so sad, oppa kitarisemida!!!!but frankly, why waste lotsa money rite? i can watch it later on youtube or dvd...no sweat and i can sit back and rewind it as much as i want until my eyes could not take his face anymore..:D well, it's seem so far from reach and i might be one among of his billions fans in this small world. just wanna say, i am really proud that at least an asian can prove to the world that we have the power to influence any one in this world and it is not only the power that a white have nowadays...and our spirits soar much higher than others that only relies on their heredity fame creation of their own imagination world a.k.a "hollywood"...perhaps, he does have all that it takes to go far in entertainment business all wide world because of his determination and ambition...his story amazes me but his passion really make him my muse..:D so now, i'm walking on clouds just to listen to his songs...fighting!

however, this is only my opinion.as a person, i don't think his  is all that, but he'd proved that hard work, sincerity and passion is the only way you could gain other's interest and trust...

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the 9 clans...

photo ninja assasin by filmofilia

well, after a long hectic week of wanting to watch Ninja Assasin.been thinking since it's not gonna be much script came out from Rain (my oppa!), i'm thinking of settling down with such ordeal by watching it on dvd later...but i can't really wait for that, so instead of shopping for groceries yesterday, me & my hommies went to mbo to watch the film...thanx,dearies for your willingness to join my crazy obsession...it wasn't a complicated story but all the blood bath really make some parts looks gruesome and scary in times...pretty much the story revolves around Raizo, a well-trained child-turned assasin from Ozunu clan. being abandoned since child, he grew up to be a heartless but skillful ninja that are hired for high-profiled assassinations. as the story grew, it revealed the truth about Raizo and his history, the investigation held by Mika and Agent Maslow and how Raizo decided to betrayed his so called father that has trained him for years because of the death of Kiriko[supposed to be his girlfriend..:(]..i supposed he betrayed him because he can see that the way their father and clan treated them with unjustice and without opportunity to claim for what they are, where instead the are treated as a killing machine...

the things that amaze me from the movie is;

1.the smooth moves that all the ninjas have when the start to attack their target...they really moved like a shadow and it's scary...

2. the way Rain moved in this movie definitely different from the way he'd dance. It's fun to see the other side of him than the usual Rain that we saw in drama or previous movie. more serious and manly.;D

3. the fighting scenes with fire-burning-flying papers all around..i think it's pretty and dramatic as if they are surrounded by fireflies whilst fighting. it gave such affect that they really fight for their freedom, pride and rights as other person that live to enjoy their freedom in the world.

4.their healing power that came from their thought and faith really amazing...i supposed people that have been through a lot really could heal their own pain without the need of modern medicine or operations...but it takes a lot of pains and training to do so,ey?

5. Rain said: Mika,oh,Mika...that's the best line ever from this movie..it's so funny and cute though...he didn't seem to be serious at all at this time when he knew that his life is on Mika's hand...

6.but, i supposed the movements and fightings scenes seem to be really fast that certain times it's hard to follow and look crowded in a way...and the way Rain held the chained blade really amazing..i feel like taking kung fu and weapon lesson now..(which not gonna happen though!)

overall, i just ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Ninja Assasin and RAIN!

my extended gratitude....

i guess gifts from others really could change the receiver's mood...definitely, we would feel happy and proud that at least someone do appreciate every effort and special occasion for us...not like we are asking for it but as for me, every little things count...even if sometimes such gifts could be in the form of words, thoughts or intangible stuff but i still appreciate such kindness..sometimes i think it is more genuine and much cuter...but the previous day and last night, i really feel grateful for the gifts...nothing i could say more than thank you...such a nice things both of you have done and so sweet too...i didn't expect much, just a true friendship from all of my friends...your love is the best gift that i could ever receive and try hard to give back...thank you for the wishes that still keep coming and for the gifts that i am receiving...i feel sleepy but still jolly with such thoughts of your kindness...BIG THANK YOU!

NOT FIN yet

what do i really,really,really want?

i've came across to one of the Oprah show where it discussed about self motivation.it is really interesting show but i could not really remember a lot of it..phrase above is the only thing i kept in my memory till now...i rarely ask myself what i really want. in fact, each day i didn't know if i really want anything..i suppose i only live according to the  responsibilities of mine...shall i conclude, that i am not a person with much innovations and aims of what i really want?far from being an achiever, i guess my life was pretty normal but i realized, as i am getting near to the "real" world, i've become a demanding person...is this really what i really,really,really want to turn as?and if i didn't turn into one, how come many of us could be very demanding themselves? is that the things that they have in their mind and try to achieve?materials seem to appear such like a pure lusts to many but who can deny luxury and pleasure when they could afford to grab the opportunities....does being a little less from what half the population are aim to; makes you weaker or unmotivated?perhaps everyone have their own motivation but matter of achieving it, are all fate putting into their hands to grab.....

adakah kekuranganku,

menjadi pedih luka buatmu,

adakah lemahku

buat ku parasit

pada kesenanganmu?

aku mungkin punya 

agenda, 

tapi tak lebih,

hanya sekadar ingin

merasa bahagia...

Ethics for the day!

photo by blaugh: finding funny

p/s:nothing to write.guess a picture to tell the whole story would not hurt anyone..:D hef a good evening today!

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

 

photo lost by Katherine Davis

pretty much life is about gaining and losing...without such balance, life would be meaningless to a person.i keep wanting to write everything that is meaningful to me, but sometimes i just feel it is better for me to keep it secret....or it just got lost in between the time and my thoughts...i am not complex but i have too much concerns...i may appear as emotionless but deep down, there's a lot of things that i've been trying to keep...but as much as i've tried, i cannot stop my own self from losing even bigger things in my life....i just allow myself to do the same mistake again and again; not because i did not believe but i know it's must be tiring for people around me to keep taking care of me...there's too much that i am expecting from others and i feel sorry that i've ever done that...