maunya apa lagi?

as much as i told myself that this would go away; very much i am disturb by the thought of you...as much i try not to care, every feeling that you might feel; i keep thinking..are you happy? are you sad? are you will be ok?did anyone hurt you today?did anyone smile to you today? or perhaps did you ever smile genuinely like you always do, if you ever?i am not sure what's the truth, it is not that i don't believe you but every silence that you try to make...tore the believe that i've kept...it's not plain white lie anymore, it hurts me each time...and i won't explain this because you should have know better...there's no secret, this is out of sincerity...

maybe,maybe,maybe..perhaps...