what do i really,really,really want?

i've came across to one of the Oprah show where it discussed about self motivation.it is really interesting show but i could not really remember a lot of it..phrase above is the only thing i kept in my memory till now...i rarely ask myself what i really want. in fact, each day i didn't know if i really want anything..i suppose i only live according to the  responsibilities of mine...shall i conclude, that i am not a person with much innovations and aims of what i really want?far from being an achiever, i guess my life was pretty normal but i realized, as i am getting near to the "real" world, i've become a demanding person...is this really what i really,really,really want to turn as?and if i didn't turn into one, how come many of us could be very demanding themselves? is that the things that they have in their mind and try to achieve?materials seem to appear such like a pure lusts to many but who can deny luxury and pleasure when they could afford to grab the opportunities....does being a little less from what half the population are aim to; makes you weaker or unmotivated?perhaps everyone have their own motivation but matter of achieving it, are all fate putting into their hands to grab.....

adakah kekuranganku,

menjadi pedih luka buatmu,

adakah lemahku

buat ku parasit

pada kesenanganmu?

aku mungkin punya 

agenda, 

tapi tak lebih,

hanya sekadar ingin

merasa bahagia...

Ethics for the day!

photo by blaugh: finding funny

p/s:nothing to write.guess a picture to tell the whole story would not hurt anyone..:D hef a good evening today!

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

 

photo lost by Katherine Davis

pretty much life is about gaining and losing...without such balance, life would be meaningless to a person.i keep wanting to write everything that is meaningful to me, but sometimes i just feel it is better for me to keep it secret....or it just got lost in between the time and my thoughts...i am not complex but i have too much concerns...i may appear as emotionless but deep down, there's a lot of things that i've been trying to keep...but as much as i've tried, i cannot stop my own self from losing even bigger things in my life....i just allow myself to do the same mistake again and again; not because i did not believe but i know it's must be tiring for people around me to keep taking care of me...there's too much that i am expecting from others and i feel sorry that i've ever done that...