what do i really,really,really want?

i've came across to one of the Oprah show where it discussed about self motivation.it is really interesting show but i could not really remember a lot of it..phrase above is the only thing i kept in my memory till now...i rarely ask myself what i really want. in fact, each day i didn't know if i really want anything..i suppose i only live according to the  responsibilities of mine...shall i conclude, that i am not a person with much innovations and aims of what i really want?far from being an achiever, i guess my life was pretty normal but i realized, as i am getting near to the "real" world, i've become a demanding person...is this really what i really,really,really want to turn as?and if i didn't turn into one, how come many of us could be very demanding themselves? is that the things that they have in their mind and try to achieve?materials seem to appear such like a pure lusts to many but who can deny luxury and pleasure when they could afford to grab the opportunities....does being a little less from what half the population are aim to; makes you weaker or unmotivated?perhaps everyone have their own motivation but matter of achieving it, are all fate putting into their hands to grab.....

adakah kekuranganku,

menjadi pedih luka buatmu,

adakah lemahku

buat ku parasit

pada kesenanganmu?

aku mungkin punya 

agenda, 

tapi tak lebih,

hanya sekadar ingin

merasa bahagia...