bersiaplah!!!

untuk menjdi pemenang..and definitely yesterday, between me and driving test..nothing could come in between...i can't afford to lose...walaupun tanpa kemahiran kereta yang kemas, mantap n jitu..i've give my all and luckily, it's all worked out...alhamdulillah n truthfully, my heart cant stop smiling..i feel like a different person today...a person without any expectations from others to meet...tak ada kesusahan yang akan aku hadapi hari ini tanpa senyuman di bibir...being outside my own comfort zone really taught a lot about real person...the things that i saw in tvee perhaps only the remake of the real situation..and at this very moment, a person make me want to write more..i wonder we he got all the great ideas and more; i envy his talent by telling things that people open their eyes and mind to discuss it over...mesmerized by his principle but real people really makes me think about the true i am..that i actually could be more that a human to myself and my close one...that no matter how small you are, there is always a trace of life of you in other's memory...

in my mind...

merindukan sesuatu yang terlalu jauh,

terlalu asing kini,

terasakan seperti bilah-bilah

belati yang membelah hati,

sakitnya kian berdarah,

terlalu lama mengulir...

peluru yang menembusi jantung;

kini terasa lebih aman,

kerna kesakitan yang melekat,

hanya sebentar cuma...

tatkala ia membunuh,

jiwaku 'kan terus mati...

tetapi tidak dengan pisau

yang kau tusuk dan melukakan...

terasa parah dan terus mengalir,

mengayuh derita di jiwa yang lemah.

1 minute 1 second...

it's almost reaching to the end but i am worrying still..life has too much to promise but the future would only bring uncertainty...i like to reflect a lot nowadays but i don't really miss anything from my past...i just feel like i want to reminisce part of it while letting go most of other parts that really hurt me...but this is my life and this is my experiences...it may not be awesome or nice at times but it's written in my book of life and will remained till the day i stop breathing...but i don't stand alone in this world or even in my life...thanks very much for being part of my life and all of the faces that i've seen and misses will remained in my heart...

1 minute 1 second - epik high

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

You said you were having a bad hair day
You said your eyes were puffy, and fell back asleep
Sulking, I silently took off my jacket,
Picked up the phone and ordered take out
Closed the curtain, and without knowing how many hours passed
Watching DVD’s
(Just you and me)
The sound of your breath as you leaned against my shoulder
I thought that it was a good thing we didn’t go out

Ridiculously these thoughts still torment me
I unexpectedly remember the jokes that you made and I fall apart
Moments that are really no big deal upset me
I suddenly remember the faces that you used to make and I break apart

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

No matter where you went, at the bar right at the corner
When you sat in your little corner
You laid your hands on top of each other on your left leg
When you were tired and yawned, you kept the tears you wiped away
And you would smile like an idiot, showing the dimples in your two cheeks
Whenever you drank water
The pinky that you raised
The glossy black hair that could blind
I thought your clumsy chopstick skills were charming
Your full lips, I hoped it would be forever

This is lov to the e
This autobiographical memory twists my heart
Flips me upside down, with never ending tears
See love could shake a hurricane
The raindrops that blow against my feelings, one drop
The little memories
Like how this glass of alcohol becomes empty, our small memories became transparent
Even though I try to bring it back
The memories of us I can never make it again
Like yesterday night’s dream it’s so clear, but it’s gone
(damn)

I can’t let go
I see you no matter where I look
(My crumbling heart)
I can’t hide
Baby for one minute, one second
(Even if time stops, my heart stops)
I can’t let go
I hear your voice no matter where I go
(My broken heart)
I can’t breathe
Baby for one minute, one second
Even for one moment, one minute, one second

Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
Even for one moment, (for one minute, one second)
I can’t let go

I can’t let go
(The whisper that takes my breath away)
For one moment
(Our sweet secrets)
For us who is as sad as our love was beautiful
(Can my tears still remember you?)

I can’t let go
(Our quirks and habits)
For one moment
(The beautiful moments)
Still for one moment
For one minute, one second

We can’t go back
(For one minute, one second)