gundah...

tiada gunanya lagi..setiap sesuatu yang berlaku, pasti ada pengajaran disebaliknya,kan?aku percaya itu dan sentiasa berharap penghujung perjalanan ini tetap akan menghampiri baik buat ku dan juga mereka yang mendampingi dan didampingi....tetaplah disini kerna aku tahu tiada yang lebih mengecewakan saat harus mengharungi ini bersendiri...hidup bukan begitu, saat tawa dan tangis itu adalah untuk dikongsi dan diketahui oleh semua,walau sesekali ia tetap menjadi rahsia...many things happened previously and i seem to stuck at this memory..aku biarkan ia disini dan pasti ia akakn tetap disini...tapi aku sedar ia tidak akan memberikan kebaikan malahan akan buatku lebih "sakit dan lemah."..makanya kini, aku belajar untuk mengenepikan ia seketika kerna aku tahu aku mampu untuk berlari lagi walau kaki masih sukar untuk berpijak diatas duri-duri kehidupan ini...

It's never enough to say I'm sorry

It's never enough to say I care

But I'm caught between what you wanted from me

And knowing that if I give that to you

I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back

No matter what I do you're always mad And I,

I can't change your mind

I know it's like trying to turn away one way street

I can't give you what you want

And it's killing me

hujan...

it feel cold and wet after it rained...i always love the rain because the feeling that its bring together with the weather makes me feel cosy and warm inside...nothing can break me and time seems like standing still...it may sound ordinary but that how it makes me feel..

how do I explain that

I just don't believe in all this

purposely for the world's perception of me
this is only rubbish put eloquently

like all the gothic poetry

kids are writing

from the high school scene

who are YOU?

to understand one's motive, maybe it will never reach to my mind of the reasons.but i just don't understand how a friend could really do a mean,bad things to someone that close to them...should this type of person be respected by his/her friends?aren't you the one who always go crying and whining about how life is always unfair and that you should be tough? i guess, on the surface you can act all you wanted but deep down it never will be that pretty because you still go around expecting people's sympathy...for me, i am started to losing my respect for this type of people...i'm giving you my hand without expecting anything in return, but as much as i tried to put up; it seems like you are wasting the faith that i'm offering...don't pretend to be a victim when you never understand honesty to others and even your own self...how pathetic it is, that you are going around telling lies about others when none of your friends are doing that to you?do you think it will lasts for long and it shall be unknowned to them...?don't you ever think of what others have been telling around about you?if you can't have respect of others please think of their pride...i think you are just afraid of all people that outshined you when it is only you that have the type of thought.and i still wondering until when will you put up to this drama of yours.. don't you feel guilty or at least regret about the lies that you have throwed around about your so called friends?does it really make you great when they are below your level when you are never the same level as they are?it is better to be on the ground as we can keep our head up and be proud with our's integrity when you have none because you're just too high..."hidup tak selamanya indah"

photo viande froide by arrtirritant